https://videopress.com/v/xAr39M1L?resizeToParent=true&cover=true&autoPlay=true&controls=false&preloadContent=metadata&useAverageColor=true Today, I came across a clip from Grey's Anatomy (the video posted in this blog post), and it hit home about how far I've come from everything I've been through since the day I was born. The way this clip resonated with me is because I’ve faced similar challenges since I was a baby.… Continue reading Resilience Against Doubt: My Story of Struggle and Survival
My medical history has been nothing short of complicated from the very beginning. As an infant, my mother and nanny could only manage brief 45-minute naps while caring for me, as my body could only tolerate one ounce of formula per hour. Any more than that, and I would regurgitate it. Breast pumps weren’t affordable… Continue reading Dismantling Medical Neglect: A Tale of Illness, Betrayal, and Advocacy
As my relationship with my boyfriend deepens and we become more invested in each other, he plans to propose once he secures a stable job. I’ve made it clear to him that I don’t expect any of my family members, except for my mom, to attend our wedding. You might wonder why, especially those relatives… Continue reading Family Bonds Unraveled: Why My Wedding Guest List Excludes Relatives
This year of 2024 is already nearly halfway over, and my goodness, it has been an incredible journey so far! Despite the heartache of losing Darryl, my late fiancé, back in 2016, the wounds still linger. Recently, his family, particularly his brother, unleashed a torrent of hurtful messages, blaming me for Darryl's passing and demanding… Continue reading Embracing Life’s Garden: A Journey of Love, Loss, and Resilience on the Ranch
I’ve had questions and incidents happen recently, and the big question is, am I still in contact with Darryl’s family and/or friends? The answer is 100% no. I went off the deep end after Darryl died, and his stepmom and dad want nothing to do with me because of that, even though I’m a completely… Continue reading Reconnecting with Darryl’s Family: My Journey of Growth and Healing
When I was sick, I was at one point dealing with awful effects from endometriosis. I’m now in remission from it and doing wonderfully even with my previous medical history. Why do I bring this up? Well, when Darryl was alive (my late fiancé), I don’t know to this day if this is what triggered… Continue reading Unveiling Truths: Navigating Love, Loss, and Pain
Darryl and I on a anniversary date Me at the hospital when I was sick and dying One of Darryl’s Art Sketches On March 19th, 2016, I woke up at 8:30 AM, and to this day, I have no idea what woke me up; I got up from bed and found my fiancé, Darryl Jeffrey… Continue reading Shattered: A Harrowing Tale of Loss, Addiction, and Redemption
Spring feels like a distant hope amidst the relentless rain storms here in Southern California. While not as severe as last year, the challenges of caring for my animals, especially the horses, amidst the inconsistency are quite taxing. Adding to the weight, my heart aches for my boyfriend, Christopher, who recently lost his grandmother. In… Continue reading Journeying Through Grief: Nurturing Love, Creativity, and Hope
In the shadowed depths of despair, ensnared by addiction, demons both within and around me, I extend an invitation, a lifeline. Join me on a transformative journey from the abyss of darkness to the radiance of light, from captivity to the boundless freedom of recovery. Welcome back to "Metamorphosis Addiction. The turning points in my… Continue reading From the Abyss to the Light: Unveiling the Unseen Chapters of Metamorphosis Addiction
In the shadowed depths of despair, I found myself ensnared by addiction, grappling with demons both within and around me. Today, I extend an invitation, a lifeline, to join me on a transformative journey—a passage from the abyss of darkness to the radiance of light, from the confines of captivity to the boundless freedom of… Continue reading From Addiction to Recovery
It's with a heavy heart that I share the news about my dear duck, Gary. I hesitated to make a public post until I could sort out the situation for his mate, Jewels. About a week ago, Gary, in his adventurous spirit, ventured too close to the dog's kennel. Tragically, one of the dogs pulled… Continue reading From Sorrow to Solace: A Tale of Resilience and Redemption with Jocelyn’s Compassion
March is already off to a busy start for me! I've been working hard to support my animals, my gardening, and my bills in hopes of building a steady income from my photography business. While I know that things could be worse, I often struggle with a fear of failure and the thought of letting… Continue reading March and My Personal Goals
Well so much for the new year starting out more positive. I got to make a trip to urgent care due to a really bad infection and I was so dehydrated from throwing up for two days, it took three different nurses and four tries to place an IV in one of my veins. The… Continue reading Hit a Bump in the Road
Alright everyone it is starting to move really fast when it comes to the new year of 2023! Already so much has happened! Been working a bunch at the restaurant. started looking for more clients to collaborate with for my photography portfolio, oh and not to mention I am suddenly single for valentines day because… Continue reading Wow February is Already Here?
Mixed feelings I have been a bit distant since my birthday and I don’t know if any of you have noticed but yeah. Time to explain why I have kind of been in the background of things. On August 28th, an old friend of mine was killed in an accident. Kind of hit home with… Continue reading Mixed Feelings… Selfish But True
As a little girl, I have always been able to predict one’s actions and always able to tell when someone is lying or hiding something. Which to live life as a normal human being… makes things extremely difficult. Especially since I was raised to be honest like death by my mother who has always made… Continue reading Being An Empath Sucks
Some of you don’t know but I have been through almost every scary situation that could happen to you. And what I mean by that is I am going to barely be 27 years old and I have already experienced life and death situation that had my own life on the line. I also experienced… Continue reading PTSD is a B!tch
It has been a very busy fall season for me and will continue to be into 2023. I have been doing photo shoots, editing photos, school, working in the restaurant, and then in December I will be doing photography for SCV Santa. They do Santa Claus and gifts for the least fortunate kids or have… Continue reading Spending money but investing
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